Sunday, January 10, 2010

Why Am I Doing It?

WHY AM I TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT?

That's a question I have been trying to answer for a while. The main and best reason is I am doing it for me. I was tired of being tired. I would sleep all day then go to work in the afternoon. Other days I would come home and be on the computer all day and be doing nothing. The I would watch some TV and fall asleep on the couch. I just didn't feel like doing anything.

I finally decided to go to the doc and get myself checked out. I wanted to get some lab work done to see where I stood exactly. Turns out I had a vitamin D deficiency. My levels were WAY below the minimum standards. Also, my cholesterol had gone up. I kind of expected that since my breakfasts usually consisted of eggs, potatoes, bacon, and beans. AND I weighed 435 pounds. That is by far the heaviest I have ever been. I remember when I used to weigh under 360 and joked of becoming a full circle. (subtle math humor.)

I'm 36 years old going on 37 in June. If I ever needed a change it has to be now. I want to be able to enjoy life. Like the old song goes, I am "living without living." Once I become happier about who I am and how I feel, hopefully that will draw me towards the right woman for me.